Ciara's Prayer

May 13, 2020

Calls - JillScott

Show me how it feels to be loved.

Thats how all my prayers started.. I even began praying on my knees formally. I usually did it in bed and I know that’s not the certified way …but I was fcking tired… everything felt the same with everyone. It got to the point that I literally was watching myself do dumb shit that would purposely make me feel like I’m self sabotaging, But Why ? I didn't know. Maybe my soul knew I was unhappy and needed to visibly show me. I kept repeating the same problem over and over again stuck in a trance I couldn't stop watching it. The ending of the beginning with these dudes..

The prayer went a lil something like this: "DEAR GOD, Why the hell does this shit have to be so complicated. I need a Man.Period. Amen." (Fun-fact: Ciara's prayer doesn't work this way) I repeat DOES NOT lol.

The men I kept choosing made absolutely no sense as to why I felt they were the best fit. I just didn’t understand anymore, the thought process… I mean think about it... how many times in our lives do you think God purposely put the Man you could have the End All Be All right in front of you?.. and you actually chose him? The Man you've desperately been praying for has been in our face's plenty of times.

And you think it just hasn’t happened cus of the Devil? lol no, its because you aren’t really ready for what you're asking for or to let go of control. Drake said "it's hard to choose the one when anyone will come with you" and he wasn’t lying at all. I now understand the men that i kept attracting were the men i didn't really have high hopes with. The guys I dated were all here to teach me more about myself and help me grow.

I would choose the ones that I thought I wanted to be with knowing deep down he’s not the one then had the audacity to try to fix it. So you want to fix people? Become a plastic surgeon, a doctor, anything in that actual profession. I bet your thinking, because no one took the time to try to fix you doesn't mean vow your life existence to do the same. Stop falling for potential and fall for what you truly feel you deserve. You can be all for paying it forward but please understand your value. Understand nothing will ever be brought to you broken and if somehow it is, that change has to come from within them, not you.

So what is the Actually Ciara prayer you ask?

The Prayer is customized to your liking and it's basically Manifesting. It has to be from your heart, Ask for what you want and deserve in a Man and never stop believing it will happen.

Dear God,

Please send me a Man who will love me for who I am. A man who will be honest, caring, patient, supportive, and loving. Please send me my Best-friend. I know when the time allows it he will enter my life, he will wipe my tears, never leave my side and always be there for me. Send me a Man who will always push me to be the Best Version of myself, enlighten me with wisdom, a man who prays for me. Send me my Soulmate, The father of my future Children, my Husband. Send me my Man who I will conquer the world with.

Amen.

*I promise you this, the more you begin to love yourself the more clearly you'll be able to idenitfy this Man you been praying for.*

What your Ciara prayer ?